It’s been awhile since I blogged. I had a blog written after my last post. It was fun talking about budgeting and spending from the business account instead of the family account. But then the civil rights protest broke out across the world. There was so much worry, fear, and tears, and honestly I didn’t feel like posting. I know it was irresponsible for me not to at least blog an “I’m not blogging” notice. But I didn’t feel like that either. I chose not to write, I spent days crying, I spent days envious, I spent days praying, I spent days just counting hours. I was functional, and I allowed myself to feel what I was feeling. I praise God that the dark cloud that was over me is gone. Everyday life doesn’t feel like a chore anymore. Please realize if you are reading this and coping with depression – contact a professional! I am not above therapy and no one is. I have a B.A. in Psychology and I was able to use the tools I learned from college, from past jobs, and past personal therapy sessions to help me cope with my short-term feelings of being low. I would go back to therapy in a heartbeat if things felt unbearable.
I just did the bare minimum to love as a wife and mother, run a business, and run a household. Being stressed and down is a horrible combination. Although civil unrest is still present — I feel like I can write again. So I would like to acknowledge the fight of my brothers and sisters; however, this post will not be going into details of my feelings. Mostly because they’re still raw.
To catch everyone up, we are vendors at the Lakewood Farmers Market! The farmers market opened a few weeks ago and their opening week was a great success. I’m dealing with feelings of missing out since our first week was going to be July 3rd until I found out the market was closed that day. Reading that email definitely had me disappointed. For starters, I have started a lot of microgreen trays. Not only that, but we adjusted the business model to reflect our market day and hours. As a result, we have not received as many orders.
I’d been letting social media know we’re starting the farmers market July 3rd. I felt unprofessional and unprepared having to go back on my word. Pushing past those feelings, I still prepared and attended our first market day that following Friday! It was like getting ready for a beach day and a market day. I had to pack lunches for the family, harvest, ensure we had all the necessary things, make the kids use the restroom two times before leaving, and set up. The learning curve was huge but we made it! I was able to juggle running a booth and parenting for 4 hours. We did not sell out of and I was upset disappointed. I failed to initially realize we made a little under a week worth in 4 hours!
With all that said, I plan to be more consistent with blogging and updating everyone on the business. We have some exciting plans for the future and I can’t wait to share them!